You know that moment when you think your love is so
strong that you won’t lose the person you love?
Sometimes love is not enough, she thought. Maybe
there is something wrong with me, she thought again. But, like every other
girl, there was nothing wrong. She just wasn't happy.
She keeps on looking at the stars at night, dreaming
of a happy life they could both have, but then again it seems they could never
be happy after this.
He was her first biggest love – not the last apparently.
Tall, handsome, with black short hair and a mysterious look in his big black
eyes, that took her into secret places of the soul every time.
His skin was milk chocolate. That always attracted her
in men. His big nice lips looked so smooth, she would dream of them at night,
since the time she first saw him. Every day, she would go back there just to
see him. They would both look at each other and get lost in their –probably
same – thoughts.
His attitude would immediately change once he would
see her approaching and coming back for him. He would stand straight and knot
his shoulders, stretch his back and arms to show his – non-existent muscles.
There was something about him that would make her go
mad in the idea of not seeing him at least once a day. She would fight with her
friend just to make her realize that she had to see him. They had never exchanged
words before. They would only see each other in the eyes and that would be
enough.
However, this silence didn't last forever - lucky her.
A big-boned tall guy approached them – she and her friend.
‘Hey! Listen, my name is Alex and my cousin there
really wants your number’ and he pointed to the guy who she had been dreaming
and wanting for far too long. She now had that cheeky, embarrassed look in her
face.
Finally!, she thought and smiled ready with her answer. ‘And
why isn't your cousin the one to come and ask for it if he really wants it?’
she said. Her friend laughed and so did Alex.
‘Soooooo, he is actually a very shy guy and doesn't really know how to approach women that much. Am just doing him a favor’, he
continued.
She looked at him immediately and saw his handsome,
shy face that looked like he was ready to hide or something. She smiled at him
and turned towards his cousin. ‘Okay! I will give it to him then,’ she said and
smiled. ‘Okay, great! Thanks a lot.’ He stood there for a few seconds waiting
for her to give him her number apparently. ‘I’ll give it to him myself in a
while’, she said. ‘Awesome!’ he said and turned and walked away.
‘Ready to leave?’ her best friend asked. ‘Give me a
se….cond’ and she opened her big bag to get a pen and paper. She first wrote
her name – Clara – and her number last. While standing up she put the pen and
book back in her bag.
She took a different approach this time. It wasn't the
same as the past couple of days, where she would just take the corner and
leave. She approached him, while he was behind his counter and without saying
anything she smiled and gave him her piece of paper. ‘Clara!’ he said
enthusiastic. ‘Beautiful, bright name and thank you! I will definitely use it.’
‘You better do’, she said and walked away with her friend.
This is how it started, but now, their story ended.
Forget about his shy, handsome face and the mysterious look in his eyes – which
now makes sense- that would take her into secret places. Now his eyes would
take her into dark places where she would be sad and miserable. Now, looking at
the stars, she wishes to never have met him. ‘You are NOTHING!’ he kept on
shouting. ‘You deserve NO LOVE!’ he would continue while he would push and lock
her in the big dark office and just leave her there for days at a time. She
would cry her heart out. So hopeless and alone; blaming herself for her misery.
No one would get there to help her. No one would ask for her since he took all
her friends away from her life. She was all alone.
But then again, she was not. Her books in the office
would keep her company, while they would be the ones to ease her pain.
After a day or two…
‘I forgive you!’ she
would say every time the door would open.
