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Tuesday, 11 March 2014


It’s hard sometimes you know? Sometimes the support you need you don’t have it and you feel it so you just give up and you lose yourself and all the good things about it like your confidence. You start having bad thoughts like giving up and taking your life away to ease the pain but that means you are weak and selfish and don’t want to face the truth.

The truth. You learn another thing. The truth you've been accepting for so long now you start denying it, because you feel weak and in a moment of weakness it all makes sense but not clear. But you must not give up and it only takes a few people to stay by your side and that my friend is like a small miracle.

Miracles happen every day. We are just too blind to see them through. The things that are free are to be appreciated and you must feel blessed. In moments of weakness you must learn and control those feelings. The small miracles can help you get it over with. You can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Walk fast to reach it and never look back again.

There. You reached it. Now keep it safe. You earned it back so don’t let it go. It’s your confidence and it will help you rise above of all your weaknesses. The biggest miracle of all is that; your confidence. Now go and rule the world. You can do it!

Tuesday, 30 April 2013

Walking Under the Sun

This is a good day to be happy. Every day is a good day to be happy, but sometimes a little bit of sunlight is not that bad. Living in a city like London, is not always a gloomy doomy day. You don’t have to always curry an umbrella with you.

So today is one of those days when you can get ‘out’ of your clothes and just feel the sun ‘burning’ your skin. The sun will continue to hide behind the clouds at times but you can still smile and feel happy for even being able to see and enjoy the sun while it shines and shows off its brilliant yellow colour.

I really don’t get why people say that London is a depressing city just because of the weather. I am from a quite hot country and relocating to London was not that bad you know. It was good for me and I enjoy gloomy doomy weather sometimes.  Getting dressed with sweaters, coats, skirts and tights is what I love. Today is a day that I can ‘throw’ away for a while the tights, sweaters or coats away for a while. It also feels good.  I still enjoy the sun of course. There is nothing like walking under the sun when times get tough. It’s like refreshment and a reminder that there is always a light at the end of every tunnel.

I’m walking on suuuunshiiiineee woooooaaahh!!

Yes! Another reason to be happy is singing the same song over and over again. It’s a classic song. You simply can’t go wrong with that one.

Instead of sitting next to the window and watching the rain pour all over the streets, and making that annoying but at times kind of relaxing noise on the windows, is a good change just to walk under the sun and feel its light taking over that almost feels like is a strength. Sun is a power that you either love or hate. In this date in my diary London is sunny, with a completely view. You can see faces of people instead of them hiding under their umbrellas and hurrying up to avoid get all wet while taking the tube or the bus. You can also see smiles on people’s faces. Now this, is a day to be happy while walking under the sun.

You can feel free and enjoy the day while it lasts. I enjoy it. I can clearly see the buildings shining through their glass architecture. I can see faces. I can see smiles. I can see the sun. Above from all I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Wednesday, 20 March 2013

I forgive you

You know that moment when you think your love is so strong that you won’t lose the person you love?

Sometimes love is not enough, she thought. Maybe there is something wrong with me, she thought again. But, like every other girl, there was nothing wrong.  She just wasn't happy.

She keeps on looking at the stars at night, dreaming of a happy life they could both have, but then again it seems they could never be happy after this.

He was her first biggest love – not the last apparently. Tall, handsome, with black short hair and a mysterious look in his big black eyes, that took her into secret places of the soul every time.

His skin was milk chocolate. That always attracted her in men. His big nice lips looked so smooth, she would dream of them at night, since the time she first saw him. Every day, she would go back there just to see him. They would both look at each other and get lost in their –probably same – thoughts.

His attitude would immediately change once he would see her approaching and coming back for him. He would stand straight and knot his shoulders, stretch his back and arms to show his – non-existent muscles.
There was something about him that would make her go mad in the idea of not seeing him at least once a day. She would fight with her friend just to make her realize that she had to see him. They had never exchanged words before. They would only see each other in the eyes and that would be enough.

However, this silence didn't last forever - lucky her. A big-boned tall guy approached them – she and her friend.

‘Hey! Listen, my name is Alex and my cousin there really wants your number’ and he pointed to the guy who she had been dreaming and wanting for far too long. She now had that cheeky, embarrassed look in her face.

Finally!, she thought and smiled ready with her answer. ‘And why isn't your cousin the one to come and ask for it if he really wants it?’ she said. Her friend laughed and so did Alex.

‘Soooooo, he is actually a very shy guy and doesn't really know how to approach women that much. Am just doing him a favor’, he continued.

She looked at him immediately and saw his handsome, shy face that looked like he was ready to hide or something. She smiled at him and turned towards his cousin. ‘Okay! I will give it to him then,’ she said and smiled. ‘Okay, great! Thanks a lot.’ He stood there for a few seconds waiting for her to give him her number apparently. ‘I’ll give it to him myself in a while’, she said. ‘Awesome!’ he said and turned and walked away.
‘Ready to leave?’ her best friend asked. ‘Give me a se….cond’ and she opened her big bag to get a pen and paper. She first wrote her name – Clara – and her number last. While standing up she put the pen and book back in her bag.

She took a different approach this time. It wasn't the same as the past couple of days, where she would just take the corner and leave. She approached him, while he was behind his counter and without saying anything she smiled and gave him her piece of paper. ‘Clara!’ he said enthusiastic. ‘Beautiful, bright name and thank you! I will definitely use it.’ ‘You better do’, she said and walked away with her friend.

This is how it started, but now, their story ended. Forget about his shy, handsome face and the mysterious look in his eyes – which now makes sense- that would take her into secret places. Now his eyes would take her into dark places where she would be sad and miserable. Now, looking at the stars, she wishes to never have met him. ‘You are NOTHING!’ he kept on shouting. ‘You deserve NO LOVE!’ he would continue while he would push and lock her in the big dark office and just leave her there for days at a time. She would cry her heart out. So hopeless and alone; blaming herself for her misery. No one would get there to help her. No one would ask for her since he took all her friends away from her life. She was all alone.

But then again, she was not. Her books in the office would keep her company, while they would be the ones to ease her pain.

After a day or two…

‘I forgive you!’ she would say every time the door would open.

Sunday, 3 March 2013

Read All About it.

"You've got a heart 
as loud as lions,
so why let your
voice be tamed?"

Emeli Sande

You've been given a voice to use it when you get the 
opportunity to do it, you MUST do it.
No one can hold your thoughts and no one will stop
you from 'shouting out loud' the
right of what you
believe in.


Monday, 25 February 2013

With a taste of justice

"It’s probably not just by chance that I’m alone. 
It would be very hard for a man to live with me, 
unless he’s terribly strong. And if he’s stronger than I,
I’m the one who can’t live with him.
I’m neither smart nor stupid, but I don’t think I’m a run-of-the-mill person.
I’ve been in business without being a businesswoman,
I’ve loved without being a woman made only for love.
The two men I’ve loved, I think, will remember me, on earth or in heaven,
because men always remember a woman who caused them concern and uneasiness.
I’ve done my best, in regard to people and to life, without precepts,
but with a taste for justice."

Coco Chanel


Sunday, 24 February 2013

As long as you Love me.

"Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine

I'm leaving my life in your hands.
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
risking it all in a glance
and how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head.
Don't care what is written in your history
as long as you're here with me."

Backstreet Boys

Always being next to the one you love is a blessing.
Having someone who never leaves your side
no matter what is precious.
We all need someone we can count on
when life gets hard.
Is about love and
As long as you love me,
I'll be there.


Thursday, 21 February 2013

I often look upon a Star

"I often dream of a new world,
that is still awaiting for me.
I often look at the sky and wish
for something good to come.
I often feel blessed with what I have and
not have.
I often look upon a star
and Hope."

Crystal Ouloupi

The thing about life is not letting go of your dreams,
and keep on Hoping.
Hope and Belief comes within our souls.

Is always easy to just keep on Hoping, but what do you do while waiting?
I suggest you go after for what you believe in.
Wishes are good, but trying and going after them is much better.
We are the creators of our own destiny
so we should get up and make it happen.
No one will do it for us.
So Try!